My sleeping habits have been out of whack since I’ve gotten home for the summer. Usually I go to bed early, maybe midnight the latest, but lately the earliest is midnight and the latest is 2 in the morning. That’s just unheard of coming from someone called Grandma. And if you know me then you know I sleep very still. If you can picture a dead person in a casket then you know exactly how I sleep. Every so often I would fall asleep on my side or on my stomach but most of the time I look like I belong in a coffin. Yeah I have a bigger bed at home but that shouldn’t make a difference of how much I move around at night considering I don’t move at all. I’m literally diagonal across the bed with my arms and legs sprawled everywhere. Its not like I sleep through each time I manuvuer my entire body, everytime I move I always wake up and look at my phone to check the time. Whats even more weird is I always happen to wake up around the same time every night: 3:15, 4:40, and 6:20. Sometimes I would actually sit up on my bed and just throw myself down again or try to crack my back (which has been bothering me a lot since I’ve gotten home too). So each time I wake up it takes me a couple minutes to fall back asleep and usually I would knock out right when I hit the bed. And on top of that my mom calls me up every morning to go in early since my sister wants to spend a little more time with her newborn and my dad is complaining that its busy at the store. I find it hard to believe that a fish market/restaurant gets busy at 8 am. Nevertheless I rush out there because its what my parents want from me, and I see maybe one or two cars. So I’m running the show until my sister decides to come in or done picking up some merchandise. I’m not complaining about having to run everything, I’m just saying it sucks being woken up so early every morning and having nothing to do. I wouldn’t mind if it was busy so I would have something to do rather than just sit around with the Sudoku book and yawning every 5 minutes. I guess it doesn’t help that I’m working at least 10 hours a day during the weekday and 12 hours every Friday and Saturday. As we go further into summer we’re going to get even more busy so I’m sure I’ll be working 12 hours a day 6 days a week. But back to my abnormal sleeping habits, I was just trying to say how my working schedule isn’t making me go to bed earlier. You would think I want to pass out right after work but oddly, I just can’t fall asleep. I tried to go to bed early but even though I’m tired, I can’t fall asleep until late. Basically, what I’m saying is that I need more sleep because I’m only getting 5 or 6 hours each night and I normally need at least 8.
have you ever thought of someone and immediately you can feel your heart physically hurting?